Even today had been very busy..In the 8 story building perhaps i was the only one working.. Well sometime it gives me feeling of proud also that generally people talk a lot about hard work and its fruit from God.I want to satisfy myself that yes this is which will take me where i want to be..
When i finished from office i was waiting in Ebene bus stop and with very frequent traffic and sharp sun the blending of air blocked my calculative mind full of numbers, deals and reminders.. sense of freedom i felt.I asked myself am i preparing myself to be successful or to be a slave.
I always find myself guilty of ignoring something or not giving proper time that it wants to convey. There is something missing..What perhaps i know.
I am missing myself..the one to whom i don’t know when i met last time. Now i am more like a puppet in hands of world. I work on instructions. I work on timelines. In this world of calculation sometimes i catch. Sometimes i loose.
But this is not where i live somewhere i loose everyday.
I don’t remember when i talked to myself last time or thought what i want to..or When i closed my eyes for 5 minutes and smiled.
The best time for me to meet myself is the local bus which takes me to office. The taxi when i am alone with an unknown driver who don’t speak English or Hindi properly and hesitate to talk and i find time to talk to myself. When i m in lift for less than one minute.
And when lift opens the door and i get into office i say myself Goodbye !! Hope to see you soon !!
