See you soon

Even today had been very busy..In the 8 story building perhaps i was the only one working.. Well sometime it gives me feeling of proud also that generally people talk a lot about hard work and its fruit from God.I want to satisfy myself that yes this is which will take me where i want to be..

When i finished from office i was waiting in Ebene bus stop and with very frequent traffic and sharp sun the blending of air blocked my calculative mind full of numbers, deals and reminders.. sense of freedom i felt.I asked myself am i preparing myself to be successful or to be a slave.

I always find myself guilty of ignoring something or not giving proper time that it wants to convey. There is something missing..What perhaps i know.

I am missing myself..the one to whom i don’t know when i met last time. Now i am more like a puppet in hands of world. I work on instructions. I work on timelines. In this world of calculation sometimes i catch. Sometimes i loose.

But this is not where i live somewhere i loose everyday.

I don’t remember when i talked to myself last time or thought what i want to..or When i closed my eyes for 5 minutes and smiled.

The best time for me to meet myself is the local bus which takes me to office. The taxi when i am alone with an unknown driver who don’t speak English or Hindi properly and hesitate to talk and i find time to talk to myself. When i m in lift for less than one minute.

And when lift opens the door and i get into office i say myself Goodbye !! Hope to see you soon !!

We Girls..

Yeah the most mesmerising topic among the male gentry..How they look..how they think..how they act..yeah its totally different from their counterparts. Generally our friends call us ..oh being a girl this is your habit..and Many a times our brothers and cousins tease us and say “oh a girl cant do..

We don’t pretend of being the what we are not..that’s why you can compare the graph of crimes done by men and women in the police records. For a girl the faithfulness and courage and power of judgement naturally comes. Even this male gentry also accuse them of being confused, suave and bluff. But we are not actually...Firstly boys don’t have any sense of treating a girl they think their talking of more and more about money, gadgets and roadmaps will impress a girl its wrong. Always being opportunistic , practical and calculative even in marriage you count how much you can take from a girl.. By using just one part of their brain they think that they are the wisest creature in this world.

They think that we are weak in maths..and try to be very smart..but truth is we don’t want to learn maths as why to waste time in remembering all these dry tables and formulas when in actual scenario their all calculations are failed and wrong. They work more on strategy rather than ideas ..

With God’s grace we have power of creation...of ideas ..of family..That’s why our parents love us so much. Whenever a boy propose a girl if she denies for him it becomes a case of unfaithfulness and heart breaking..but have they ever thought of if our parents love us so much. how can we be with somebody who loves us less than them..Even we never ask any proof .And for them they always want proof and logic.They get irritated of our silence and hesitance in behaviour in some matters but if they have power of understanding should know our values doesn’t change over time. We take decision keeping in mind our family and its values.

And once we are determined we do what we have decided..and easily don’t get change.for them its our dominant behaviour .And for themselves they use word leadership...

Yes we agree sometimes we have tears in our eyes but this is a sign that we have heart also and we are not stone .But plz don’t explain this as our weakness remember the lady members of your family will never accept defeat till the last moment and with full faith says ”don’t worry everything will be fine”..”what if we lost the property we can create again” ..”we are together always”.. “God will never do anything wrong with us” we have a very good relationship with God.

Yeah its true that we ask our parents to study out of town and leaving home we have tears in our eyes..we want to lift heavy things but we feel pain in our hands..yes we are bit shorter in height and for taking things from high almirah we ask somebody else..dont underestimate well for the heavy weight i think God has created some other creatures also and for height problem a ladder can solve our problem. Then you will be useless.We give you importance actually.

We are brave enough to take care of ourselves but this is male gentry that created problem of safety and security in this world..And then say oh we are here to give you protection..What rubbish.

Yes we take time in shopping becoz we are always filled up with so many new creative ideas we don’t want to waste our money in old ideas and moreover we do shopping for whole family and we know all choices cant be same..so what happened if we took some extra time than you. You are always so individualistic..this “me only” attitude oh God!!

We are not opportunistic to take building blocks of success from some other one..And flatter somebody so that we can benefit..w are straightforward and very clear about us .we create our own building blocks and then create a success in every field..although you have created so many hindrances for us in the society..and when we do well you feel ego and irritation and want us to sit in home and take care of kids.

Whatever this male gentry think we hardly care becoz we know we are doll and princess of our parents..and God loves us so much as we pray from heart not from mind..and we know we are the best than the rest.. :) :)

(written originally when i was in college)

Moving on the way

Moving on the way

“ I walked on a way..started my journey

Clueless i went through stones, thorns

Shinning Sun, dipping Moon, restless starry nights

In the way i met different faces and

Sometimes different faces of the same

I kept moving on..with my weaknesses

Perspiring and exhausted i closed my eyes

And felt the presence of Him..the great

No more stones and thorns but my mates

No more darkness but a shadow on my head

To realize the light..a new light..

I kept moving on with prayers in my heart

The destination was far..very far..or exists??

I took the roads that was long but i was to finish fast

Was to reach faster than others..i fell down to earth

Bleeded in pain i realized i lost my light

Again i closed my eyes i gained what i lost and more ..

Hands of Him touched my head again...and pointed me

A new way..a new journey to begin...

I Kept moving on....

(This is a tribute to thy kindness oh dear God !! I know who is always with me forever, 28/12/2009)

Money... Matters... and Mango People

I was watching the TV show “ Money and Matters” a financial discussion of experts on investment options available in today’s scenario with live audience. Fist one for salaried professional earning good money something in Lacs better option this mutual funds, investment in property this and that. .Then they came to another segment who wanted to expand their business line and was looking for hospitality and fashion apparels business how should they raise capital.Debt/Equity fundas and govt incentives and taxation ,FDI share and SEZ policy...so on.. Discussion was going on with so many graphs and diagrams showing different trends and analysis of expert.I guess they have ready reckoner of all sectors calculated based on past years trends and different statistical/financial tools..that i have forgot after finishing my economics study J . These experts so serious and involved with numbers that it seems they must have properly calculated that they will talk to their wives 3ᶟ times only becoz they will having 4ᶟ demands so their probability of escaping this will be at least 6².Their whole calculation goes wasted when their wife swaps the credit card for 2²+ 7² times by 4 in evening.

Well suddenly a person with thin body and wrinkles raised his hand.

“Firstly a very good day to all of you” (trembling voice) i also want to make some financial plan with my income.

Expert “ yeah always you should ..world is full of options we should not keep our money hoarded. It has multiplier effect” well now we will search portfolio for you. Tell answers of basic questions

1.Are you a motivated to take risk or you are looking for safe kind of investment?

2.Do you have any plan that we can discuss like what you want to own, invest or expand your business?

Person “ yeah everyday i take new risk..i hardly find anything called safe..

Expert: wow this kind of person works on their instincts and create new examples. A big round of applause for Sir..

(whole public did clapping for which they are there)

Expert: your own plan..of..

Person: (Interrupting in middle of question) sir i have noted down all questions..Question no 2 right?

Yes i plan to own my own big house, a car for my son and marriage plan for my daughter after her education ,Some jewellery for my wife and for me in future i want to start my own business of construction.

Expert: As per your plan you should go for Home loan ,Education loan for your daughter,Car loan for your son, and for her marriage you should save at least 10-15% of your income.. and invest in Gold for your wife. . and for your own business..I must say construction business in now booming in India..You can have bright future in this sector and ...

Just minute Mr..We are sorry ..we forgot to ask one question from you..

What is your source of income and how much?

Person: Sir my income has now increased from last year as much as 46%.

Expert: wow..Wonderful..then i will suggest you to have insurance of your all loans ,life, medical also.So your current income is??

Person :My present income is Rs 25,500.After deductions i get 22,400.And for your information i have taken one loan of 12Lacs for which i need to pay 12000/Month.I have family of 6 persons .As my daughter is studying business in hostels i need to send her accommodation and college fee every month .My son is studying engineering he has bike but in his college increasing trend of cars. well i was happy when Tata launched Nano. But he still have complaints i won’t accept Nano. My old parents just got ill last month and i had to take personal loan of 250000 from a bank on 12% interest rate.Every month me and my wife make some financial plan but when i watched your show on TV i thought you are expert you can give me better suggestion.

Expert: Yeeaaaaaaahhhh why not sure . just wait..(discuss with other experts and take pen in his hand and calculates and prepare some tables and rubs then again take calculator in hand and other expert search something in google..)

Person: Dear Sirs i tell u what i do..I belong to mango people (by mistake he forgot to say common people) when i take loan from one source i resolve after taking from other one.I never crush my children’s dream if my daughter wants to study i sell my ancestor’s land in whatever money i get .When my wife feels envy of seeing other’s jewellery and dresses i say to her she is most beautiful woman in this world and so elegant in her simple wears like Jaya prada in her old movies. When my son asks for car and bike i promise him to give if he achieves 75% marks bcoz i know if he has to achieve this % he has to stay back at home and study and has to leave the kind of groups which lure him to get a car. Gradually he will understand our family, will become mature and will take part time tuitions for his needs then he will be able to buy a bike.And for my old parents i will never compromise for money..although i need to take some money from my relatives. And for my own business i pray to God everyday.

And by saying this Mango people gets emotional and move out from the hall...

Programme broadcaster cuts this mango people’s episode and starts his show again.

The Survival of Fittest

When I entered into the room my little sister was reading some book I could understand from her expressions that she was fade up with those bookish theories. To relax a bit she put the opened book on the table. I glanced and pronounced “ Theory of Evolution..good..”

“What good?? Nobody agrees on what other has done” She continued “Lamarck says that giraffe’s neck is a gradual development over time due to stretching of their neck to reach leaves of tree when the low lying grasses perished .This acquired character gave birth to new species of giraffe with long neck.

Perhaps to show more depth of subject she kept continue “Darwin suggests that all giraffe were not having similar neck and with natural selection process only those survived which were best adapted to environment”

Is it only a old theory applicable only to particular species ??

Actually not..this is true for all who can’t accept nature’s selection will be discarded .whether u call it nature ,environment, time or destiny is the one who has right to select and human is the one who under this process of selection will face, resist ,accept and finally adept to this willingly or unwillingly. And definitely after this selection if he survives will be new birth of his own. Power of destruction and power of creation work simultaneously, destroy what you have created in your mind as a blockage and will come across to someone you never met . And the only thing to survive is to change.

Shopping Sunday and Gudda..

This Sunday started with a mood of laziness. Like everyday’s promise of doing exercise getting postponed and scheduled to be very next day and finalized at Sunday, concluded to be yet again by saying “Ahh I am not at all fat So why to do this. Then in a very slow motion we finished breakfast at 10.00AM. Well my sweet sis Gudda when she is with me its always very compatible mood of fun.We both rested in front of TV for more than 4 hours, watched very nice movie “Do Dooni Chaar”..well I like Rishi Kapoor and Nitu Singh together very much .Then we both planned for doing something that is favorite pastime of every female. Yes ..Shopping..

But due to shining Sun of Summer we thought to do it in evening. We were so packed in our TV room we hardly did care about changing mood of weather. Surprisingly sky filled up with so many patches of clouds but Gudda with her craze of shopping passed a very biased conclusion that although its cloud it will not be rain. Its just another temporarily weather change. Infect its good time to start for shopping.

“Sona you always complain for doing shopping in Sun when its pleasant wind you call it cloud oh God”

My little princess whatever she says I obey even being elder becoz mostly she is right. But at this being half convinced with her thoughts I put on my comfortable purple T-Shirt and jeans that my mamma complain I repeat so many times. Its a fact if I like something I don’t care about other’s view there are many my dresses that I never touched from last one year. Same thing with all my sis. My mamma try to persuade “beta that salwar kameez looks very nice on you try it..will look good” and we say “ewwh Mamma..no. this seems like an occasional”

I don’t know why your parents want you to wear best of dress I guess just becoz their neighbours may not remember the design and color of their children’s dresses .

Well after getting prepared in less than 5 mins opposite of female nature we both reached at our bus stop that is hardly some 100 meters away from my current home in New Delhi.We both were waiting for a DTC bus for Noida sector 18 that due to some construction now days some buses are taking different route so after 15 mins of wait we both boarded a bus.. u know from a DTC conductor its very hard to get any information more than a ticket but we finally we got a confirmation from his own tongue that it will take different road so wrong one.

So realizing our fault we moved out of bus on very next stop and as expected clouds got darker and started raining . Now Gudda declared its not bad weather infect very pleasant weather to do shopping.

“Ok” I said .wow so good now rain started heavily and when I looked towards Gudda expecting she will be feeling sorry well being a younger one and smarter than me she turned the question towards me that if I had not refused the idea of doing shopping in morning we never had to face this situation”

I understand female spirit of shopping was at its high level I said 2-3 lines in defense and suggested so many alternatives of her desired shopping that she can manage till next Sunday that we expect will be good for shopping. Very unwillingly she agreed and we both concluded that its totally waste of time that we did today so better to return back at home..any without wasting any penny. Why to take ticket for very next stop then loss of money will also add in this. what It needs only acting skills of hardly one minute that we will take by bus to reach our home. Definitely it will be a fun also..

We both took a DTC bus no 34 that goes towards Mehrauli so we were sure to say “oh we thought this to be for Nehru place(totally opposite direction)” As per my strategy I decided to be more realistic by asking at least 2-3 people where the bus is going..and showing some anger and fear of finding yourself in wrong bus. For me I did perfectly but according to Gudda it was overacting .And we both returned home in heavy rain.

Well weather was also in playing mood so rain stopped in few mins when I decided to write something at my blog and in Gudda I looked take shape irresistible spirit of shopping again .Elder only for name only youngers lead the home.I agreed again this time like a responsible citizen of India with tickets we reached our one of favorite market , seized the right of some good things .some dresses..again some footwears..now I found Gudda to be very relaxed after all we both emptied our wallet…….