Grey World

No..No this fall under grey..this area is grey..no black, not white. In our everyday life we hear these lines every now and then..at home..at work..

This neutral colour which in itself is mixture of two contrast shades..totally different..Was wondering how this originated and how this grey has started prevailing our life

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Human life is complicated journey of emotions and sometimes this push us into situations where the thin line of good or bad..fairness or injustice..right or wrong..starts depleting and we find this "grey zone".

Is this grey zone"" real?  Not a straight answer i guess.. we dont know.But this is a real paint job..white start loosing its shine and black comes into our life into totally different form.

I believe this grey has done more harms than any white or black.

Genius homo sapiens coined many terms (conspiracy theory, propaganda etc etc) to use the particular situation  at their convenience and advantage, to cover indecision or to justify the act which was definitely not white?

Well good or bad also has lost its significance and now we use in relative term..what is good for one..can be bad for one..

So this "grey" with other  genius coined terms start making perfect sense and people start seeing what our paint fathers want us to see.

We cant see a small squirrel dies in fron of us..right? We are human.But our paint father will use the brush and we start realizing the benefits of wars or attacks that kills several innocent people, But same people will  start using human right shield to deny people's right to defend on their own land.

Sometimes i feel humans are not meant for this earth..our ambition won't stop and with all manipulation we will destroy everything and will call this justifiable.. We are best in using "Grey zone".

Kindness

My stop is still 5 stations away..I have around 20 mins and then I was checking social sites and then I see this interesting post about a women helping ,110 drug addict kids,beggars and homeless..I want to read about it .Then I see all those cute pics of kids lauging,posing,studying with this God mother and my heart starts melting.

A shine in their eyes is a proof that their life has been changed already with this heavenly act of kindness.

When for common people like us will take several minutes to decide whether to contribute 50$ somebody already sacrificed his/her personal life to bring ray of light in somebody's life.From where this courage flows..how...can't say they don't face challenges in their lives..surely do..but how?

I want to read more about these people who are helping humanity to survive in most difficult era.

Most of them mentions about one particular event that strikes in their mind and doesn't leave untill they take this path.I believe it's more about inner voice..the voice we all have but we mute and don't want to listen as this costs time and loss of opportunity.

To defend ourselves we praise these people and appreciate the path they have taken and tag them as God so that it gives us satisfaction..well we are nowhere close to them..and we move on...

But the time we are living where we juggle around professional and pesonal life and chasing financial security what we can do?

I truly believe Kindness is not something you should additionally adopt at some moment of your life..this is the way of life.Who doesn't feel better after doing the right thing..right thing is kindness in every small thing we do.

We dont need to go extra mile to find this happiness if we start noticing its around us. Greet people with smile whenever your meet..specially the one you see near turnstile standing since morning and guiding people at exit door..pregnant lady who is managing visitor cards at reception..talk pleasantly to taxi driver during the trip to office..pass extra stuff you dont need to needy people..comfort aunties and uncles in their late 70's working at hawker centre that you like their food..make your kid play with all and dont descriminate with other kids on any basis..answer politely and cheerily to cleaners in your society.. buy something from small shops..etc etc

Whatevre you do will come back to you.. the rule of universe

PS: This is my Jan 17th 2020 Post.

Mother's Night

I look at the clock its 1:30 Am and my eyes want to rest for half an hour at least..falling every now and then.I decided i should sit down and take him to the hall. I guess i will be more energetic when i leave my comfy bed. He is not in mood to sleep and passes me a smile. :) :) :)

Today was another hectic day like in every family when wedding bells ringing..we finished dinner and family discussion at 10:40 pm and went to sleep around 12..Doesn't matter how hard i try now days this is my regular time.

I notice this is the time to change his diaper. He wants to play,i make him sit in rocker and enjoys the swings but only 5 minutes tick tick tick and not very happy with this monotonous game..wants something else..I touch the wind chimes and he starts throwing his legs in happiness and keeps gazing them ....again a smile comes on his face.

He must be hungry and try to feed him..yes he was.Now as per doctor's suggestion i keep him upright for few minutes but he is more interested to see other things in the room.He is continuously watching the ceiling fan and now throwing all limbs and making sound hu hu hu.. :)

I think he will sleep in another 10 minutes..he also looks like sleepy.Suddenly don't know whats matter he is crying i go to the balcony so that he can take fresh air and relax.I guess he don't like layers of clothes he is covered with. But no use he is still crying. Oh i think this is the time i need to change the diaper for sure i can smell it. 

Thank God he looks relaxed now it means gripe water is working..good stuff for baby stomach..

I notice few mosquitoes in balcony and few red marks on his face i just close the door and return back to hall.we both play with small toys which make voices of different animals..I didn't' find any other toy for 3 months baby. i pick up turtle and he kind of laughs..and want to hold this in his hands..i pick up fish..huhuhu..this continues.Not sure people say its important for an infant to listen different voices and talk as well. Its over 2:30 am..I wish i could have got 10 minutes.

I make him sit on rocker and put my mat with it and take a pillow..let him play i sleep for 5 minutes.Sorry not a good idea he is crying again..He wants a companion to give full attention.

I start walking in the hall i hear the voice"still waking  up?? Baby not sleeping".

"No mamma" i answer..Mamma insists me to come to her room so that she can handle the baby and i can have a short nap..i denies politely as i think he will sleep in another 5 minutes as he is awaken from last 1.5 hours its over 3 am. He starts crying again i think he is feeling hot and i should be in my room. I switch on the aircon and put it on 24..He is better already..Wow feeling cold.Somebody enters into my room. "So cold?? its too much ..bad for baby.." Mamma clearly didn't like this.I am being scolded and reminded that baby can catch cold..blah blah blah..

But he was happy i thought i maintain at 27 degree now..She sits on sofa and takes baby into her hands and plays for a while i see another person entering into my room. My sister Cheeni with sleepy eyes.."mamma mamma" She don't sleep without mamma. I suggest mamma better idea is you make Cheeni sleep.She leaves in few minutes i check my mobile its 4 am.

Again crying starts..i am confused and little frustrated "what's matter"? "What now"?

Oh hungry again...needs milk..i sing baby rhymes few lines and he smiles and notice he is sleepy and in few minutes he hold my top and cling me..Sleeping already..Wow..good..great..I am so so happy..

I notice some noises from the kitchen.I make baby sleep on her bed and goes to check.."Do you want Tea Sona" ? Papa asking..I check the clock its 4:30 Am..I want to sleep and take tea same time somehow i say "Yes"..Then will go to sleep..

I am happy baby is sleeping i can sleep too. At least this night is better not like yesterday when my mamma managed the baby after 4 am so that i can sleep for a while and having pity on her old nerves i could hardly be in my bed for 1.5 hours..

Questions

One month already passed was just wondering ..My God..time is flying..

I somehow complain to myself "hey why i don't find time to do the stuff i love"? :(

Well answer is simple i guess so "Life works like this" we skip our favorite stuff,our passion to do which is necessary.This fight between our passion and necessity continues through out life.At the end of the day in most of the cases necessity wins :( 

This life is very strange we all know that we are not going to take anything with us when we leave this world still we accumulate and participate in rat race.At the end of the day how we fee?l we are tired and confused but answer is "this is how everybody lives"

We spend whole life in searching answers to different questions asked at different stage of life.

Believe me some of these questions are really worth asking but there will be few completely irrelevant.

In few instances we want to talk to people straight on their face how we feel about their questions but being a social animal we answer the way they like.Answer is "this is how relations are maintained"

Trust me not all questions are negative few of them will really give you insight about yourself. These kind of questions may come even from most unexpected people from  your life.

So the real challenge is on which kind of questions you focus more and invest your time.At the end of the day its our choice to choose what we keep in our head.

Trip to Cameroon Highland

Still on our way to Singapore..our bus just stopped at few places along road for snacks n few tit bits. I just had waffles with chocolate and water melon juice Niru was confused as being non vegetarian he had more choices😛😛😛
Anyways this short trip of 3 days was a bliss for both of us who feel the intense desire for a break after struggling with all electronic devices in office.We needed our electronic free holidays and relaxing and chilling in somewhat different environment.
We decided for Cameroon Highland as our first experience was very pleasant with bike riding all along the hills to strawberry parks and Lavender garden.Morover we were interested to wear our jackets which are lying in our suitcase unused and feeling those cool breeze😍😍😍
We hardly find time to feel that cold and enjoy our hot tea in those woolens.
We decided to stay on other side of cameroon this side as Tanah Rata is sufficiently explored with all its nearby places and food option.Malaysia has lots of variety of foods and interesting thing is its very much inspired from its diverse culture.What we find here is south Indian cuisine with chinese and malay food and it creates lots of options for tourist to choose from.Whenever we get chance we prefer to go to local food market to understand the cuisine and try it.Although being a vegetarian i have taste buds to try different food and trust me it mostly goes favourable.And one of those finest tea we can enjoy here "Teh"
This place has everything food,nice climate,friendly people and diversity of culture to experiene.This was my third short trip to Malaysia and i really hope i can explore more of it.😊😊😊



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Choose Right !!

I just saw the road how far we have come..seems like still few 100 km from Kuala lumpur..i see pines trees,palm trees and other vegetations on both side of road.Niru is trying to sleep folding her seat.This bus is not nicer than the one we came by..I does not have small screen TVs for entertainment.Thank God I can see my documentaries in my phone.We just saw one together it was bit disturbing based on Godhra riots how all started from one train to whole society.I must accept my heart started melting now question is for whom?
Lets not connect this question to my faith i follow it melts for common people like you and me..people who have families,kids,elders and who has business other than politics.
Whatever happens..from whomsoever starts..we as common people pay a huge cost.This is more pricking question to me today as India celebrates its indepdence day since 1947. Feeling so moved with emotions of people i want to relieve so i just saw another documentary  about Country's progress.How well country is doing in space,industries and other fields.Honestly speaking my views are not political ones that i shouls strongly agree or disagree.I am just a common people and want to express how i feel.
My education at least has given me the discretion to choose right over wrong and express what is fair to the best of my knowledge.
I am not writing this to create patriotic message of Indian unity and sense of inclusion sorry i am not a politicians.No need to write for me as i have my circle wide enough to know views from all over.l
There is one common thing between all of us we are "commoner" we feel for our family and near ones.So lets not be puppet in the hands of wrong people and choose right and fair above all.
But one thing why we are criticising politics we choose our candidates through voting process if we select an influential goon over simple educated we are bound to have wrong representation.
We common man dont know our power we are the one who live together in our societies,celebrate together,laugh and live together and we dont need any politically motivated message.i dont want to use designer phrases or situations to create the kind of impression "unity in diversity".This is already here since ages and even after so many cultural and social transformations untill few bunch of people try to create disturbance and we start feeling scared or confused.There is no need as more than 99% people are commoners always busy in our day to day lives with our family.
The only faith we need to follow is "right"We all need to stand together for the society we want..a social fabric closely knitted with all views together but when somebody see this it shows our most respected flag our motherland.

Long Live mother India !!


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My Newzealand Diary-South Island

At Nelson one person from our  car rental agency came to pick us as their outlet was bit far from airport.
And at agency we completed all formities and took the car with GPS as we were supposed to drive a lot now.
So We drove from Nelson to Motueka and reached our motel the nice stay :)
Motels in Newzealand are very comfortable and gives a homely environment with all cleanliness.Dont underestimate them as you are paying less tham premier hotels.As far as my experience is concerned i find them really very very good.
So after getting freshen up we just roam around few streets.
Next day our plam was to do Abel Tasman National Park :) We heard a lot about this and it was in our must do list.
Early morning with all enthusiasm we started for Abel Tasman and from T junction we saw a road sign both ways Abel Tasman we chose the one with less distance and were driving towards it.In another 40 mins we realized there is something wrong as we have already done around more than 40km from T junction but we we saw a road sign uphill showing Abel Tasman so we started driving.Oh My God the road was a narror one leading to uphills with no place to stop in mid way.I was feeling bit scared to see the depth of valley full of trees and Niraj was enjoying to see my pale face :) Then i saw few senior citizens with all excitement driving with high speed i feel like i am really less than them ;) Then i started enjoying those lush green depth and mild breeze on face.
Now we both started cracking jokes as we are sure we are at wrong track for a right destination but a right track with wrong destination..the unknown..slowly that road ended on a uphill and we see only one connecting non concrete road leadding to other mountain.
I stopped Niraj and asked him to find place to park car and inquire.
Oh wonderful we could see a small cofee/tea shop on our left side.
It was bit different in the sense a very beautiful lady with green eyes selling tea and few other woolen stuff seems like taken from her own animals.
There were lots of animals like deer and a small camel type and few birds she was taking care.It was a bright sun of 1PM we decided to rest and have tea and our favorite carrot cake.
Also we saw same ladies whom we saw on our way.when i shared my fear that i encountered on the way they said "it was lovely my dear not scarry" and a gentleman with them just winked pointing out non concrete road "if you take this road may be you will never be seen again" hahaha

So after a rest we decided to leave our plan for Abel Tasman and moving towards Kaiteriteri (yellowish sand with dark blue clean water).
On the way we met a french couple who guided us to Kaiteriteri and we felt relax..finally we got a destination where we wanted to reach.
That beautiful view of Kaiteriteri people doing kayak and swimming seems like its not real its a painting with vivid colours.
After that adventurous unplanned one ofcourse we came back to our hotel and rested whole night to start a very long trip by road.
Our plan was to drive from Motueka to Franz Josef app 500 KM as we wanted to spend more time in Franz Josef.On the way we were aware we will have chance to see Greymouth and Westport but with our schedule we cant think of doing each and every attractions and we have to be selective. 
So we decided to go to Greymouth directly but another surprize was waiting for us..our GPS suddenly stopped working after hardly 50 km so we tried to find out with our agency if we can get some assistance they said nothing before Queenstown possible.We tried in Murchison to get it repaired but seems like buying the new one was the only way.
So we both were very disappointed whether we will be able to continue our south journey :( :( as South island is so much without people you need to drive 50-70 km to find a small town. Anyways we both decided to continue with our journey with help of maps and road signs.This journey of 460KM i dont remember that we did a major mistake in getting the right road..Road signs were so clear and moreover our friendly Newzealanders we infact we enjoyed it to the most.

What happens happens for a reason  this journey actually opened our mind  that sometimes unplanned can be the most pleasant surprize so even if nothing happening as per your plan ..its God's plan



Honestly I want to pen down everything here about those long  road trips, those beautiful lakes,, people we met in our journey, Tasman sea drive,our food experience there is so much to cherish..
But for this trip i will just say i would have missed something if i dont plan for NZ.

Lots of love for NZ !!